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All these things I do are but a facade I try to built,
Hoping and praying no one sees the cracks I have in me,
Can't anybody hear the voice that's screaming softly?
They say the eyes are doors to the soul yet why can't anyone see mine?
Darkness is all but I see around me,
My heart; slowly being frozen in time.
I'm sorry my love but I have to let you go,
I tried so hard to make you understand me,
To make you see my unseen tears of desperation and my unspoken soft cries for help,
Each time my soul tries to reach you, you always turn away,
Never trying to understand this cold and helpless soul of mine.
I guess in the end it's not your fault but mine,
I held on too long never realising that my old soul was slowly fading away with time.

The moments that seem to be oh so precious are but mindless games being played,
Each emotion shown is but nothing but a weakness known.

The sugar coated lies that were being fed are slowly turning sour,
The so- called illusion that was created, is now slowly unravelling itself.

The façade that was build is now slowly cracking, showing it's true form.

Writer's block

Hey guys, long time no see right? haha XD
Sorry about that but got to say I really wish to update my blog but I can't since well like it's written in the title, I got attacked with the writer's block.
Hopefully, I get some idea to write or try to at least get my creative juices back in order ASAP.
Anyway, till then.

~PEACE!

XoXo

A summer love

Hey guys, long time no see right? haahhaha XD Sorry for pulling the vanishing act on you guys. Anyway, got to say this Summer was really good for me. You must be probably why right?

Well, firstly the fact that I'm entering my final year of Law which officially means I'm going to be done with Law by Summer 2014. Cool right? hahahha XD Five long years of torture is almost done and I must say I'm really happy about that fact but then again it's kinda sad because it would be the time to throw away your toys and start working and settling down in life. But that's a worry for next year right? Let's be happy with the fact that I'm almost done now hahah XD

Again another second thing I loved this summer was the fact that I was in Thailand for my birthday which was on 24th July and got to say it was a good and memorable birthday (though I wish my mom was there with me). Celebrated my special day with good friends and their family and I must say it was good. Other than celebrating my birthday in Thailand, it was probably the first time I travelled abroad and alone but I was not completely alone I went to Thailand with a friend and also, I already have a few Thai friends so in the end it was no biggie for me.
The reason why I wanted to go on this trip was because it was somehow like a rite of passage for me and got to say I learnt a lot in this trip and one of them is that the world is really big even though we are connected with each other because of the internet it's still a big world. In the end this trip lived up to its purpose and I'm glad for it.

Tired and helpless,
Those are the only words that can be said.

Each day a battlefield within myself,

Never knowing when it would come to an end. 

I pass through the streets along side with the crowd,

Yet, why does it seem it's all but a farce they keep. 

The smiles on their faces seems all but a mask they have painted on, 

Such expressions that cannot be fathomed by a mere person like me. 

Slowly  yet, slowly the mask that was put on by them falls down,

Finally the unpainted face is shown. 

-Iba.R

Finally after so many months I'm finally updating my blog ahahhah XD Sorry for going M.I.A guys. Anyway, I just wanted to update you guys that I did a cover of Akdong Musician's 'Confession of a Foreigner' few  minutes ago, so please do check it out if you have time, and yes, please don't bash me up since my Korean isn't that good hehe XD (The link is below this sentence)....
https://soundcloud.com/musiqueamour/confession-of-a-foreigner

~Xoxo

Hey guys, long time no see right?? hahhah XD Sorry about that was caught up with classes and other shitty things that makes life pretty much fucked up and busy :P
Anyway, in the next few days I'll be a little free so hopefully I'll be updating the blog after a hiatus of 1 month hahah XD
So yeah, see you soon guys.

~Peace!!
XoXo

Wanderlust

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Inked and loving it

Hey guys well, I'm back from the so called holiday I called upon myself and yes I finally got myself inked one week back or so. 

I got four designs done all at one go and trust me it didn't pain much as how people kept saying or maybe because I wanted to get it so much I kind off blocked away the pain hahahaha XD

So yeah the first design is of a Cross; the reason I got that first is the fact that God is always constant in my life and is the top most priority so it's obvious I would want to get the design inked first.

The second design is the word 'Faith' with a feather and the infinity sign; which obviously signifies that I should always have infinite faith in God; no matter what life throws me and the feather to remind me of the people who I have lost in my life are not forgotten but remembered with each step I trod in the path called life.

The third design is a musical note with four stars; the musical note signifies that music constantly plays an important part in my life and the four stars signifies my family, my friends, love and hope.

Lastly, the fourth design is a simple design of a logo which holds a lot of meaning to me; the reason why I came back to music and to writing; BigBang.

So yeah, each tattoo has a deep significance in my life. Each having a story behind it to be told.

Each one of us have our share of bad days to go through in life, days were we feel like there's no more hope any more to move on, days that makes us wish to just fade away with time but if we try looking over the horizon in the end of such days we might see something breath taking and beautiful in the midst of all the chaos and confusion.

-Iba.R