Happy 2013 ♥

Another year is almost ending in a few hours; a year that was filled with good times and the bad, a year of goodbyes and of hello's, a year of laughter and tears and a year that made us realize many things about life.
We don't know what the new year holds but I pray that this year will be a good year for each one of us, a year that we'll have less stress, less pain, less sadness, and more of happiness, laughter, love and peace; a year that will be good for each one of us. So have a Happy, Blessed and Prosperous New year guys, God bless you and have a 'Fantastic' year ahead.
-♥♥Xoxo♥♥

Life..

"You the people have the power, the power to create machines, the power to create happiness. You the people have the power to make this life free and beautiful, to make this life a wonderful adventure" - An extract from "The Great Dictator Speech"- Charlie Chaplin

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w8HdOHrc3OQ

A typical Christmas celebration in Shillong

Your table will be full of Christmas cakes from friends & families, they will be popping in throughout the day for tea & cake and at night a Christmas eve party , upstairs elderly uncles & aunts sitting around the fireplace drinking and crooning to some Elvis , Frank Sinatra numbers while someone strums a guitar ... downstairs the young ppl dancing & partying like its New Year's Eve! Outside in the courtyard a few of us standing by this huge cackling bonfire and having this drunk "intellectual " conversation ! Tomorrow morning Church service, the guilty ones always sitting in the last row nursing a hangover !! After that buses waiting in every locality to take us for a Christmas picnic to Barapani !! They"ll be singing & dancing inside the bus, kids screaming ," Merry Christmaaaas!!!" 

- That's Shillong for you :) MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone !!!

Source https://www.facebook.com/pages/Shillong-Backpacker/106976849324767

♥ ♥ ♥

"Everyone has their own paths in life that they need to walk or follow, if you don't keep changing you will never grow, if you don't grow you won't learn to be a better person.

Life is always weird or maybe not weird but it shows you things that you never expected nor thought about, but that's the beauty of life as well; we change, we grow, we learn, we fall down, we get up, but it's the experiences relating to these that matter; whether we have the courage to move on and face life courageously even though we know we might change all in a matter of seconds, minutes, hours, weeks, months, or years". 

-Iba.R.

Missing You

Made another cover and its G-Dragon's Missing You with Mobommie Pamzie and got to say I can't believe I sang in Korean hehehe XD Do listen to it if your willing to hear the torture hehe ^.^

By the way, it's a very short version of the song. Enjoy :P

https://soundcloud.com/musiqueamour/missing-you-g-dragon-short

-Xoxo 

#nowplaying Seven Nation Army- The White Stripes (The Glitch Mob Remix) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-m7e7tCn7Bk

The One that Got Away

Hey guys, got few minutes to spare today and I ended up singing a cover of The One that Got Away of Katy Perry, I got to say I sounded sucky and to be honest I personally didn't like the way I sang the song but due to continuous nagging of Mobommie certain people I ended up uploading the cover so please spare me the criticism because like I said even I don't like it ahahah XD 

Anyway, enjoy the torture guys!! 

https://soundcloud.com/musiqueamour/the-one-that-got-away-cover

~Peace 

Xoxo 

Untitled

This darkness has seem to overwhelm me, the cold air that fills this void.
I stand on this edge thinking so hard, words seem to escape from me.
Breathless and tired,
An untitled moment of life.

~Iba.R.

Credited: http://ihopetofindit.tumblr.com/

48 Important Truths I’ve Learned About Life

1. You can’t change other people, and it’s rude to try.

2. If you’re talking to someone you don’t know well, you may be talking to someone who knows way more about whatever you’re talking about than you do.

3. Everyone likes somebody who gets to the point quickly.

4.  Bad moods will come and go your whole life, and trying to force them away makes them run deeper and last longer.

5. Children are remarkably honest creatures until we teach them not to be.

6. If everyone in the TV show you’re watching is good-looking, it’s not worth watching.

7. Yelling always makes things worse.

8. Whenever you’re worried about what others will think of you, you’re really just worried about what you’ll think of you.

9. Every problem you have is your responsibility, regardless of who caused it.

10. If you never doubt your beliefs, then you’re wrong a lot.

11. Nobody has it all figured out.

12. Every passing face on the street represents a story every bit as compelling and complicated as yours.

13.  Ralph Waldo Emerson’s works alone can teach you everything you need to know about living with grace and happiness.

14. When people are uncomfortable with the present moment, they fidget with their hands or their minds. Watch and see.

15. Those who complain the most, accomplish the least.

16. Putting something off makes it instantly harder and scarier.

17. A person who is unafraid to present a candid version of herself to the world is as rare as diamonds.

18. If what you’re doing feels perfectly safe, there is probably a better course of action.

19. The greatest innovation in the history of humankind is language.

20. Blame is the favorite pastime of those who dislike responsibility.

21. Everyone you meet is better than you at something.

22. Knowledge is belief, nothing more.

23. What makes human beings different from animals is that animals can be themselves with ease.

24. Whoever you are, you will die. To know and understand that means you are alive.

25. High quality is worth any quantity, in possessions, friends and experiences.

26. The world would be a better place if everyone read National Geographic.

27. If you aren’t happy single, you won’t be happy in a relationship.

28. Even if it costs no money, nothing is free if it takes time.

29. “Gut feeling” is not just a euphemism. Tension in the abdomen speaks volumes about how you truly feel about something, beyond all arguments and rationales.

30. Everyone thinks they’re an above average driver.

31. By default, people think far too much.

32. If anything is worth splurging on, it’s a high-quality mattress. You’ll spend a third of your life using it.

33. There is nothing worse than having no friends.

34. Words are immensely powerful. One cruel remark can wound someone for life.

35. It’s easy to make someone’s day just by being uncommonly pleasant to them.

36. It is worth re-trying foods that you didn’t like at first.

37. Problems, when they arise, are rarely as painful as the experience of fearing them.

38. Nothing — ever — happens exactly like you pictured it.

39. North Americans are generally terrible at accepting compliments and offers of help.

40. There are not enough women in positions of power. The world has suffered from this deficit for a long time.

41. Anyone can be calmed in an instant by looking at the ocean or the stars.

42. Life is a solo trip, but you’ll have lots of visitors. Some of them are long-term, most aren’t.

43. The fewer possessions you have, the more they do for you.

45. Einstein was wiser than he was intelligent, and he was a genius.

46. Wishing things were different is a great way to torture yourself.

47. The ability to be happy is nothing other than the ability to come to terms with how things change.

48. Killing time is an atrocity. It’s priceless, and it never grows back.

~Taken from: http://theburiedlife.tumblr.com/ 

:O

Hey guys, long time no see right? Hope each of you are doing well and I can't believe that 2012 is almost ending in a few days when it seemed like it was only yesterday the year started. Phew! Amazing how time passed by so fast right?
Anyway, since it's December everyone is busy with shopping and making cakes and visiting families and got to say even though I hate the cold this is one thing I love about Christmas, the cold, the shopping, spending time with family and last but not the least singing carols on the streets and spreading Christmas cheer ^.^
Well, like I said the main thing about Christmas is that family keep visiting each other (after all it's the only time everyone gets a pretty long vacation) and well, today my nephew (cousin sister's son off course) came over with his aunt and saw me studying (yes, people I spend the entire Sunday studying for tomorrow's paper) in my room. While I was studying I got a phone call from a friend so I decided to pick up the call and my nephew heard me talking on the phone, immediately went and told my Mom that instead of studying I'm busy talking on the phone and asked whether my Mom allowed such antics (the mind of a 8 year old I tell you!! XD) and my Mom replied saying that I was old enough so I know what I'm doing. My nephew kept quiet for a few minutes and said Pfft! She's only in school, she isn't old. She shouldn't pick up calls while studying!
My Mom and his aunt starting laughing and asked why he said such a thing, in which my nephew replied saying well, she's only in her Senior High School so she should not be considered old.
The moment my nephew left, my Mom told me about this and I got to say I was flabbergasted!!
Seriously, I don't look like I'm 22 but I look like a 17-19 yr old  to a 8 year old kid? Should I take it as an insult or a compliment?
Damn, this must be one of those moments in life were you go like Eeeeeehhhhh?????? WTF!!
Anyway guys, this is what happened today that want to share with you that sometimes, (well there are sometimes okay!) in life that you wish you look older and not be considered a kid by a kid itself.
~Peace

In a daze....

The Buried Life

Credits: http://theburiedlife.tumblr.com/

❝ We all know we have a finite period of time. I just feel if I’m going to be alive, I want to be challenged—to be as immortal as possible. The path to that isn’t an easy way, but it’s a rewarding way. ❞— Frank Ocean

Ramblings of a practically mind fucked kid!!!!

Suppose to be on hiatus till 14th Dec but damn got to say people, I can't study anymore!!! I'm practically mind fucked because of the many sections and cases that I got to read and they all seem to be endless and damn it so fucking tiring!! Seriously waiting for 14th Dec to come soon because I seriously don't want to study anymore. It's cold and fuck who would want to study in the cold???

Aaaaahhhhh 14th Dec C.O.M.E. S.O.O.N!!!

On hiatus till 14th December because of the End-semester exams. Take care till then people!!

~PEACE!!

The dusk scene in Shillong that takes my breathe away everytime.

Word!!! ^.^

Finally done waking up early, sitting for long lectures, running around for attendance, making up excuses and writing projects that seem to never end and getting sleepless night (for this semester off course) but the sad part of this is the fact that End-Sem exams are just around the corner and to be honest I seriously I'm not in the mood to open my books and read about how laws were made and the cases that seem to be written in alien language that seem to be fucked up as hell.

This is pure #KillJoy T.T

Rantings of a kid stuck in between books

Hey guys, long time no see right? Lol XD Yeah even I agree! It's been pretty long since I've last updated my blog since usually my updates would be once a week but the workload got pretty heavy and in the end I was caught up with projects that should have been over but the professors thought it was the best way to keep themselves entertain and ended in giving us another fucking workload of projects that included thirty topics that needed to be hand written.

HANDWRITTEN!! (Yeah people, its a fucked up Indian education) Bloody fucking retarted if I say so myself. Anyway I don't want to rant about unnecessary things especially about projects because trust me I'm practically fed up with it.

Today's rantings is however about something that I know every law student would understand and that is the fact that no matter how hard we work we end up getting our asses kicked HARD! The never ending cycle of six months spent in attending classes, listening to the never-ending discussions on topics that doesn't make sense and running around finding materials for the so called projects that need to be completed and preparing for the finals has taken a big toll on me and I know I do not stand alone in this.

Ahhh, I seriously wish I could finish this course as soon as possible because trust me my patience is running low and the frustrations are on a all time high most of the time now. Seeing friends who study beside with me in high school finishing their College and right now working or are getting their Masters done as we speak, does not make me feel all too good about the position I'm in right now because truthfully I feel that I'm stuck in a place where I'm not going forwards or even backwards, no movement at all and sadly I do not like this feeling at all.


Ahhh the rantings of a kid stuck in between books is seriously fucked up in so many ways.

~PEACE

XoXo

Music the best thing on Earth

Too short

I've been living this life for more than 22 years and though I may not be a person whose an expert about matters regarding how life should be and all since I've still got a long way to go but everyone have their own experiences and lessons in life that they learn even though it may be a short time being here on Earth.

So here I am, a girl whose been here for 22 years, telling her share of experiences that she has learnt and one important lesson in life is the fact that life is too short to be taken so lightly.

I've seen death come at time's when one doesn't expect it, I've seen and felt the agony, the pain and the regrets on the faces of the people left behind.

The relationships that should have been saved, the love for a person that wasn't express, words spoken that shouldn't have been uttered, wishing that time was a little more lenient, these were the very thoughts that passed through me when I lost people I loved and cared the most in this life and I know many other people as well would have had the same similar mindset if they have lost someone in their lives.

It took a long time for me to finally find the peace that I wanted and when I did I realized that God made sure I learnt something from it;

"Life is too short to be spend on things that are not meant to take much of your time. Life means to Live, to breathe, to smile, to love, to cherish relationships, to care and to make sure that every moment is a moment that takes your breathe away. Regrets shouldn't be in the lime light of our lives. So smile at things that makes you smile, laugh out loud if you want to, love without being afraid even if that person doesn't love you back; cherish those relationships that should never be broken, show people that you care, make every moment you have in this life a beautiful story that can never be forgotten; for always remember that life is too short".

-XoXo

On a foggy November day

                                           

Hey guys, been a long time since I've last updated my blog right? Sorry about that, my projects have been piling up and I had to finish it by last month which I thankfully did but professors love giving us more work and in the end we've got another load of projects that need to be done by this 19th and got to say it sucks especially when you finally thought that all the running would finally end.
Anyway, enough of talking about projects and shit, I might end up freaking out like a small kid by thinking of them right now, so onward march with the topic for today.
Last Saturday was my friend's advance birthday bash and we ended up going to Sohra aka Cherapunjee (the rainiest place on Earth)and that ended being a big photo session because the 'Birthday Girl' wanted to take tonnes of pictures and well this is the outcome; the photo session 'On a Foggy November Day'.

 

  

 

Missing you

Six years has passed yet it still feels like it was only yesterday since you've left,
Life is short but taken for granted so many times.
Every single day after you left, an emptiness can be felt,
I try so hard to smile; telling myself I'm alright.

The scars being forever present but can never be seen,
Never realizing once that the time on earth was precious.
Words that shouldn't have been spoken keep haunting me every day,
The words that should have been conveyed are now nothing but regrets.

Moments we've shared, the memories we've made are treasures that mean the world to me,
The mask I had on for so long, is slowly breaking off.
The words you spoke, the things you've taught, reminds me how much you loved me,
The dreams you had for me, the hand that never let me go, makes me realize how you cared.

Words can't expressed how much you mean to me,
Time has made sure to go on and make me realize many things through the years.
The bond we share can never be broken, in my heart you'll always be there,
Though it's hard your not here, I know your up there watching over me.

Though six years has passed; and each day is slowly passing by,
Know that since the day you've left I've been missing you.

-Iba. R.

[Dedicated to my dad, wherever you are know I miss you RIP]

When I was a teenager :P

An old picture that I found and realized that I've been experimenting with many hairstyles but this was the one that I love the most.

A crash course in Khasi...

And I'm finally back guys!! How are all of you?? Anyway seems most people in my friend's list has asked me to give them a crash course in the Khasi language, which most of you don't know is a language spoken by the tribals of Meghalaya, to be exact the people who are from East and West Khasi Hills.
Khasi is rich in folklore and folktale, and behind most of the names of hills, mountains, rivers, waterfalls, birds, flowers, and animals there is a story, it's one of the very few societies in the world that follows the Matrilineal society.

Anyway, the Khasi language is a really unique language and well I won't go on talking about it, here goes with the lesson; 

The alphabets comprises of;

 A, B, K, D, E, Ng, G, H, I, Ï, J, L, M, N, Ñ, O, P, R, S, T, U, W, Y.

a, b, k, d, e, g, ng, h, i, ï, j, l, m, n, ñ, o, p, r, s, t, u, w, y.

Yeap guys there is no C in Khasi but K is used instead. The alphabet NG is pronounced as ng (through your nose) and to be noted in Khasi I is pronounced as E and E as A, and A is pronounced as ah! 

The alphabet Ï is pronounced as ee and Ñ is pronounced as nnn.

Next we have is the way gender words; 

u(as in oooo) is masculine

ka is  feminine

i(as in e) is diminutive

ki (as in key) is plural

Now common words which are used are;

Bam- means eat

Um- means water

Leit noh- means go/going

Khu-Blei- means Thank you

BahBah- Older brother

Kong Kong- Older Sister

Bah- Older man (formal)

Kong- Older woman (formal)

Phi long kum-no?- How are you? (formal)

Nga khlaiñ- I'm fine (formal)

Ja- cooked rice

Kumno?- How?

Shano?- Where?

Shisha?- Really?

Myn-no?- When?
Sngew-bha- please

Rit- small

Khyn-nah- children/ kids

Sam-la- teenager/ Boyfriend/ Girlfriend

Ieit- love

Phi-You

Nga- Me/I

If you want to ask something from someone, let's say a stranger, in Khasi we say;

Phi tip shano ka don?- which means Phi means you in a formal sense (masculine and feminine), tip means know, shano means where and ka don means where it is?
So the sentence means Do you know where the place is?

Before you start a question especially to a stranger whose older to you, you've got to be polite because Khasi people are more into the politeness and how you show respect. 

Basic sentences to know when in Shillong;

Phi kyr-teng aiu (a-iu)?- means what is your name? 

Phi wan na ja-ka aiu?- means from which place did you come from?

Phi lah dep bam?- means have you eaten? (dep here means finished/completed)

Hooid- means yes 

Em- means no

Leit suk- means safe journey

Khu-blei shi-bun- means thank you very much (shi-bun hear means very much)

Numbers that need to known;

Wei - 1

Ar- 2

Lai- 3

Saw- 4

San- 5 

Hyn-riew- 6

Hyn-niew- 7

Phra- 8 

Khyndai- 9

Shi-phew 10

Well, I guess that's enough of basic Khasi langauge crash course, because to be honest even I'm not that good ~lol XD The basics are covered though but writing and speaking are two different things, mind you. Anyway, this concludes the lesson for today~lol XD

-PEACE

XoXo

Twenty random facts about me

1. I love Jesus
2. I love music and writing
3. The three relationships I value the most is with God, Family and Friends
4. LOVES BIGBANG AND KWON JIYONG.
5. A dork who loves cracking jokes and do retarded things
6. Hates spiders and all the creepy crawlies *brrrr*
7. I prefer keeping quiet even though I might look the sociable type
8. I love the colour Black
9. I love collecting unique and cute trinkets 
10. Very afraid of the dark
11. I get hyper if the talk about travelling comes in the picture
12. I'm a very cold to people except to people who shares the same wavelength with me, thus the choosy attribute comes into play
13. My anger is let's say is something you should not see
14. I love photography
15. I try living my life on the edge, or in other words I love being spontaneous 
16. I love cooking 
17. I love singing but that doesn't mean I'm good at it
18. Loves ice cream and chocolate 
19. I get constant mood swings but don't worry its normal~lol XD
20. I have a blunt personality which sometimes gets me into loads of shizz but to me honesty is the best policy

So here people, these are the twenty facts of mine that came from the top of my mind. 

-PEACE!! 

Xoxo

One thing that makes me love Shillong is the fact that there is unseen beauty you see before the sun rises every day and when the sun sets. To me its all magical and I must say it takes my breathe away and makes me realize how life is beautiful if only we look and see further than our point of vision that we are so used to seeing our lives with. We should try living life in such a way that we should see over it and search for the horizon and who knows maybe we would see something that we never thought was there.

Credit: J.Manners 

How to love a woman.

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.” - Bob Marley

It's cold- Epik High

Even when spring comes and flowers bloom,
And summer comes, making memories melt down…

The four seasons never suited me in the first place. I’m a cold child.
My harsh personality is like winter that cuts through the skin. The cold wind. It’s needless to say.
To me, having a cold heart is everything. My heart is like the winter ocean.
You’d know when you approach me on a ship. That I’m not an island, but an iceberg.
I’ve lost my focus. My eyes are frosted.
Because my cold memories were being stepped on, I only kept screaming without an Adam’s apple.
I was an icy road with nothing but painful scars.
My heart collapsed like an avalanche. When I pulled myself together, it was a lightless night again.
Even when the sun, named you, rises, the snow-covered mountain will not melt.

It’s cold here. Even though I hide my hands in my pockets
It’s too cold. Even though I put my hands together and blow on them
Because my heart is frozen solid, my lips keep becoming chapped.

I’m the only one who’s cold. Even when I wrap my body with blankets
It’s too cold. Even when I throw myself into someone else’s arms
Because my heart has a hole, even though I try to cover it, the wind keeps escaping.

Though spring visits flatteringly, I stand on the edge of fall.
My memories have stopped at winter. I’ve locked up my warmness. Inside the chapped flesh of my dry heart.
My memories are trapped in a frozen river. They hold on to me, and don’t let go of my hands.
Ever since I learned about our cold separation, spring, when flowers bloom, have never come again.
To me, cherry blossoms bloom like snowflakes. It’s cold here.
To me, the sunshine only hits me like a blizzard. I’m the only one who’s cold.
Whatever I touch, they all become frozen. I’m afraid that I might hold your hands.
Becacuse, if you become close to me, your heart might catch a flu, too.

I’m cold as ice. I’m cold as ice. I’m cold as ice. So cold.

Even when spring comes and flowers bloom,
And summer comes, making memories melt down… Here, it’s…

It’s cold here. It’s too cold.
Because my heart is frozen solid, my lips keep becoming chapped.

I’m the only one who’s cold. It’s too cold.
Because my heart has a hole, even though I try to cover it, the wind keeps escaping.

[A must listen too song and album that one should look forward to! The reason that made me fall in love with this song is the fact that it talks about the feelings a person has, especially when they turned into someone whose cold and that even if they find someone they love and cherish, the thoughts of it breaking plays in the mind due to the fact that the person became cold and harsh. This song talks alot about the person I've become right now, maybe that's all the more reason why I'm attached with it. But, anyway, do listen to it, you'll definitely fall in love with it :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xBPC2FOfZJQ

-Xoxo

The insecurities of a student

One year and a half and I'll be done with studying law and the thought of what will happen after that scares me. I don't think I'm alone with such thoughts because I know many of us think about what will happen when a certain chapter of life is almost at its end.
Whenever I meet people they would ask me this question, which sometimes I don't know what to tell them. It's weird when people assume I'm going to continue to pursue my masters in Law even without asking me first. I've been thinking so hard for the past few years after starting law school about what career path I should choose after it and I would always end up being stuck with a big question mark in my mind because honestly I don't even know what should I do. Even if I finally have a mindset on what I want to do I end up being so insecure and be fill with so much doubts (yeah, I over think things) that I always end up where I started from which is the question mark going round my mind.
I honestly didn't know that being a University student sucks! When we were kids we always knew we had a path to follow which is from kindergarden to primary school, from primary school to high school and from high school is either college or in my case direct to a University which from then you don't know what else to do (in my case, I've got a mom who keeps telling me to choose whatever I want and because of that I always end up being like a lost puppy who doesn't know what to do!) .
Friends and seniors all decided on what to do and trust me its all based on law, which I think it's good since they know where they are going but then there's me, the kid whose still confused even though I'm already in my fourth year.
Ahhh, the circle of insecurities that can never stop in a student's life.

When boredom strikes on a holiday

Today gotta say was the most boring day ever even though its a holiday. Since I was pretty bored I decided to bake something for the family and I ended up in baking a chocolate cake which I must add its pretty tasty lol XD 

As we trod down the path of life, sometimes we need to just breathe and realize that there are things in life that should never be taken for granted.

 

model: G.Sangma

model: G.Sangma

model: Iba.R (:P)

Halloween High XD

Its finally Halloween month and damn I'm in the mood for some trick or treat :P

"Those moments in life were you realized how you missed those moments that you can never get back, the moments were you wish that time stood still, the moments were you wish that you never want to go through, the moments were you felt you reached rock bottom. The moments that make life, life. Those moments that went you look back you finally realize you've come so far".

Wedding Bells

Heard the wedding bells ringing across the town,
I smiled to myself and realized that your officially not mine any more.
Another love to fill your life that was made empty by me,
I saw you walking hand in hand with her;
Smiling and looking like you've just won the lottery.

I walked away like I had a few years back,
Slowly realizing that if I had stayed maybe I would have been the one in your arms right now.
I strolled down the park where we first met,
Memories of how we were replaying on my head.

The smiles and the silent conversations we always shared,
The inside jokes that we both laughed like crazy at.
The unspoken promises of being together,
To stand by each other side's no matter what happened;
Now but a dream that has finally ended.

Each talked slowly ending with a quarrel,
Each phone call with just a small How are you?
Each meeting ending with nothing but a short goodbye,
Smiles were turned into frowns.

Both of us realizing we wanted different things in the end,
You wanted a bond stronger than what we had;
While all I wanted was time to breathe.

Never did I realize the importance of love,
Though each fight ended with an apology;
Chances with us started running low.
Our goodbye's however, came earlier than what I expected,
Unspoken and quick.

Though three years has passed I still think about us,
The life of what could have been plays through my mind.
Choices made when I was young serve as a reminder of the past I wasn't proud,
Regrets now playing its role in my life.


Heard the wedding bells ringing across the town again,
I see you walking down the stairs with her in your arms.
You smiling at her with eyes of adoration,
I guess you've finally found your happy ending.


-Iba.R.

Things that I love

Thank You

Hey guys, pretty long that I came online and updated my blog right? Yeah, Sorry about that was caught up with tonnes of paperwork that needed to be done by yesterday and finally the only time I got time to write something is right now (actually I got some paperwork but I still didn't feel like doing it until I'm done updating my blog :P). So yeah, tomorrow is finally the day I leave for Delhi and go compete in the Henry Dunant Competition and represent the entire University (which I think its freaking scary considering the fact that I'm not much of a person who loves talking :P) but this is all in God's hands in the end right? We only need to work hard from our end and the rest is upto God, so fingers cross people :)

But yeah, today I'm not in the mood to talk more about that because once I do, I see and feel butterflies covering me XD.

Today, I wanted to write something that I've never told much people about it and it's the reason why I got back to music and into writing again. Not many know this story since I do not like telling my past that much since we all have a few skeletons in the closet that we do not ever want to open in our lives right? The reason why I want to write about it today is that I finally learn to let go of such a past and I finally made peace with it  and I think people should know that even I had my share of ups and downs in my short span of living.

Few years back most of my close friends of mine know this very well, that it was the worst or rather that point of my life were I felt like I couldn't breathe any more, each day was not what a day were I woke up on the bright side of the bed and smiled at the beauty of the world but rather I was one of those people who didn't like anything at all, no matter what it was I didn't smile from my soul. Yes, I smiled around and showed everyone I was okay but few cracks showed on the surface but not everyone can see it, even my closest family couldn't see those cracks well enough because I knew how to hide behind the mask of smiles. I think I have wrote this on my earlier posts (sorry if I'm mentioning it again) but when my dad passed away six years ago I was the one who got hit with the loss the most, maybe because before he died we had an argument that I seriously wish I apologized instead of being the dumb stubborn kid I was, but guess this happens when you take things for granted right? So yes when he passed away, depression and guilt was not far away from eating my soul away, numbness from the world was a feeling that I grew accustomed with and to make sure I was still alive I ended up having scars, each day was like a battle with my inner demons and emotions that I had to keep in check every moment but God had other plans for me though, for a two years or so I was reminded about things that made me realize that sometimes we makes mistakes, we should learn from it and accept the weak points we all have in our lives and live on and try to be better people.

During those two years or so, music and writing didn't have any effect in my life, it was like I was writing for no-one in particular and even though people say writing will help you to me it was more like a muddled and jumbled thoughts of my mind that made no sense at all. Music didn't give me the joy it used to give me when I was younger, it felt my entire life source was on a stop button instead of being on pause. Relationships with me also kept breaking and falling apart but that point of time I didn't think much about it, to me being alone was considered the air that I breathe.
But as time passed, I slowly understood things with God's help and I slowly learnt to let go of the past regrets that was eating me up every day, but music and writing were still left blanked. I didn't know what to do to make me get back that passion and joy I have lost, all I could think was to pray and keep on asking God to help me and show me a way to get back what I lost.

Another two years I was walking on that long road of frustration, I kept thinking about ways to get back into music and writing, I even stopped singing during those two years. But again, God made me find my way back into music after those two long years of waiting and praying. The song I heard was not in English, let alone in Khasi (my native language) but rather it was in Korean but the way it conveyed its meaning through the music was something different. After listening to it and a few more songs, I finally started enjoying music again, slowly finding joy again when I though I would not never get it back and when I learnt more about the composer I started getting into that hyped I had before, the hyped of writing and the joy you get to see on people's faces when they say that they feel connected to that particular piece.

Now, it's finally three years to be exact since I found my passion again but now its burning more stronger than ever, knowing that whatever it is the passion one has for music should never be lost because to me, music is the kindest, caring and understanding friend you can have in this cruel world other than God.

So Thank You God for all the blessings you've given me especially when I was lost, and Thank You Mr Kwon and Bigbang for making music and writing songs that makes people like me to believe in themselves and find a way back to their path.

-Xoxo

The things that I love the most...

Okay guys, people have asked me what do I love the most and soo ta-dah! :D
Yeah, I love accessories and I love getting those unique and interesting accessories that it's very rare to get and these are a few of what I have collected so far.
Hope you like them :)

The un-send letter

Opened the box that has been collecting dust for many years,

How long has it been since this box of memories has seen the light of day? 

As I was looking through the old letters I found a letter that was never send,

I smiled and remember the feelings that I had put when I wrote it.

Reading it again I remember the sweetest memories of young sweet love,

The smiles that we exchanged, the tears we both shared. 

The so called love at first sight for both of us that we secretly shared, 

The moments were we ran away from home just to spend time with each other. 

The secret memories we both shared under the starry nights,

Never knowing when we would be caught. 

Each time spent together was a breathe of fresh air that made me want to live, 

You made me want to live my life like there's no tomorrow.

We were reckless, wild and young,

But we both didn't care. 

As I kept reading a small smile tugs on my face,

Remembering the promises we made to each other and craving our names on the town's tree;

The day's were we both didn't care about anyone.

Years has passed and now it's 20 years to be exact,

We are still those kids; reckless, wild and young at heart.

The un-send letter now being nothing but a memoir of the love that stood through it all,

A remembrance of our never ending love story. 

-Iba.R.

Loneliness ain't so bad.....

Was talking to a very good friend of mine a few minutes back and she wasn't feeling perky, to be exact she got hit with the feeling of being lonely and being homesick so this post is meant for her because honestly I want her to smile and also I got a new idea to write about so *tah-Dah* a new post :D [Btw, do thank her because she gave me the idea lol :D]

So yeah, I guess most people have gone through such feelings when one is far from home and from family and trust me it kind off sucks big time especially when you need motivation and a little bit of loving from your mom or dad. I have been the only child in the family for 17 years and trust me I'm so used to being alone most of the time but being lonely is totally different mind you people. I do get times when I feel being lonely was good but most times it scares me, and I know I'm not the only one when I say this. 

I want to let people on a little secret, I was never with my parents most of the time, my childhood was mostly spent with my grand father and my aunty [my mom's younger sister] and my dad since my mom went off to study in Delhi for three years so because of that I was mostly stuck at home the entire day alone and with my nanny but then again even though my nanny was there, I was lonely [yeah people, I was a lonely child so give me props to being emo :P].

So yeah, after that I had to leave home for my high school for two years but it wasn't so bad though because I had awesome kick ass friends who were there to suffer the same fate as me [but I think it might be my emo side kicked in that period though :P], anyway there were moments I was homesick and I felt like kicking Rita Paul's asre [she's the Head Warden in the Girl's dormitory when we were in school] because of her constant nagging and her way of talking that made me and every else if I might add to puke and die at that very moment [yes she's that old nutty wringly green hair monster that our parents told us about when we were kids :P]. 

Anyway, I realized many things though through the years [and don't think I'm emo even if I was before :P] and one thing that stuck out was the fact that even if we are lonely and feel that we are alone in this world, there will always be someone who will be by your side through and through it just that we need to look better. Sometimes, walking the so called lonely road is not all bad, you learn many things about yourself when your alone as long as you embrace loneliness as a companion trust me you will understand that most times in life you have to walk this road many times, each time you tread on this path you learn many new things you never have expected it so instead of being all down because of it why don't you learn to take it as something new to experience since everything in life be it good or bad all depends on how we look at it. So don't worry I know loneliness is a scary thing but if you look nicely you'll see that your not the only one who is feeling this, and even if your family and friends are a million miles away they would always by your side be it physically or spiritually. It just all depends on our mindset and if you still feel your alone message me or call me I'll definitely be there for you :)


-Xoxo

Never meant to be owned

Restless nights and sleepless dreams,
How long has it been since I had the privilege to be comforted with the darkness?
Every day a routine of walking, smiling and living a human life,
But every moment a personal battle within myself.
Decisions were already made, discussions were already talked;
Not once have people asked what I wanted or what I dreamt.
I wasn't born for myself, to live a life I chose, to talk who I wanted,
The actions I made were all controlled, a puppet on a mere string played by someone else.
I want to scream out loud but when I do why doesn't anybody hear me?
The voice that I so cherish cannot be heard any more.
I want to dream and live but why are there chains binding me?
The freedom that I once felt are now a mere remembrance of the times of innocence.
I try so hard so break through the barriers but yet why do I feel my energy is being weak,
Have I become so weak through the years that I forgot the strength I carry?
The shackles that hold me are stronger than ever,
Yet I know I was never born in this life to conform to anyone.
I was born to live life according to my own wishes,
Never to be strung along as a puppet.
Conformity for me was never the air to breathe,
So let me cut the so called strings,
And let you know, I am my own person, never meant to be owned by anyone.

-Iba. R.

Notifications

Hey guys, well from tomorrow it's going to be a very hectic 3 weeks, reasons are that I got to organize a fresher's party with my seniors (this is one of the reasons why I hate being a senior as well) on 14th, so full swing on the decorations and the different programs that need to be present on that day and fuck it's so hard to make people come and say they are ready to do it BUT enough ranting on such a topic.

So yeah, I got practise runs for the moot court competition as well (the competition is going to be on 20th and in New Delhi) till 18th  then the battle will start so because of it I literally feel like butterflies are living in my stomach right now because I'm shit scared and nervous for it. But I got teamed up with the best so all fingers cross right? 

And yes, I got my projects to finish by this month and as I have mentioned before projects are mostly research paper so it's going to be a a headache because the projects are really fucked up so I'm officially going to be a walking zombie this month.

Anyway, enough of my ranting, see you soon (hopefully that is :P)

-XOXO

Life of a Law Student Part II

Well guys I'm again with the second part of life as a law student and damn I can't believe I'm already in my fourth year right now and exactly after one year and 6months my life as a law student would come to an end and that's when the shit glory days of being a lawyer would start for many people in my batch all except for me and a group of friends since we are planning to complete our masters. For me well, personally I'm planning to do my masters in Global entertainment and the Music Industry and I know most people haven't heard about such a Masters because trust me even I found out about it recently last year itself.

Anyway, enough talking about my future plans because I personally do not know whether I can get it or because it's all in God's hands so let's just have our fingers cross eh? :P

So yeah people who are planning to pursue law as a profession do remember I'm writing all this as my personal view so don't think I'm discouraging you it's just that I want you to know what you got to go through before getting the name of a Practising Lawyer.

Anyway, on ward march with this shit people :P

1. Like I said earlier in Part I, law students get lack of sleep and because of that we can never sleep for more than 5- 6 hours everyday. We practically got used to the fact that we are walking zombies who has no hope to get enough sleep till the day we die. 
2. You realized that no matter what happens you know the best way to act smart is to keep quiet and show that your deep in thought even though you don't know what the fuck hell is going on. 
3. You realize that there won't be any point in getting angry because to be truthful you know that even if you do get angry people would consider that you have a calm personality so you freaking out would be fucking really scary. 
4. You learn that law isn't all sunshine and rainbows as we see on the television or read in books because honestly it's really a dark and scary world if you don't have people to help you. 
5. You realize that your name isn't going to be used but rather the number you have in the roll call. Get used to being called #4 or whatever your number you have for the remaining semesters you have. 
6. You finally realize that assignments are really research work (yes, we have to act like research scholars as well). 
7. You learn what is time management (yes, you will learn it in the hard way since your going to study to study law for five freaking years). 
8. Patience is the key to everything, especially dealing with your professors (trust me, your professors expect alot from you especially after you reached your fourth year). 
9. You love spending time in the library (even I don't know how that turn out that way). 
10. As said earlier in part I, your lies will get better with each passing semester so consider it as a practise run to get you ready for the Court room. 
11. You learn to twist so many things that even yourself would get lost during the process (I usually get lost often, nothing new right now). 
12. You hate the sentence 'lawyers are liars' because you know that such shit sentences aren't true at all. (Honestly I think people are dumb if they such things, if it wasn't for us so called liars who the fuck hell will they fight for their rights?) 
13. There will be many times when frustration would hit you real bad. The reason would mostly be because you want to finish this course fast and start working especially when you hear your friends are already working, but please do not lose hope. 
14. Most of the time your alone but you'll get used to it though because you finally understand whose a friend and whose a foe. 
15. You goals in life start getting clearer and you actually know what you want to in life (yeah it took long enough right?) 

Well, that's all I've learnt for now and I know there's still more, even though you think its like a lot of things law isn't a bad profession but that's for you to judge yourself anyway so let's continue some more points again when I learnt more about life as a law student after all I still got a year and a half more *bleh* :|

-Xoxo

When I'm bored at home and the only thing I can do is this shit :P 

Stupid right ahahahha but who cares XD

Reasons why an Ex will always be an Ex...

Right now I'm seriously in the mood to write about the reasons an ex will always be an ex, you might be thinking why such a random topic about but I seriously feel people should realize that there are people in this world that believe that once it's over its over and I'm one of them (don't blame me though I haven't fallen in love, yes guys I've never fallen in love). Anyway yeah, these are my own reason why an ex will always be an ex in my eyes and please do not mine my language and also my view in such things because everyone has their own mind and thoughts and below are my views even though it may seem rude and mean, please do understand that.

Anyway, the reasons why an Ex will always be an Ex in my books are as follows;

1. There's a reason why we broke up the first time, to me personally I believe once a relationship is broken I will not get back together again.
2. The past is the past, enough said.
3. I liked you but that doesn't mean I still like you right now, understand that. 
4. Don't think you know me better now when you could have known me better before.
5. Acting like you fucking know me just because of a few months together but never realizing you don't know yourself as well in the end of the day.

These are a few reasons why I will consider an Ex to be always an Ex and there still some more but I think the reasons I would give would be a little too much for people so I'll end till the fifth point but yes people I don't date my ex'es and I seriosuly don't beleive in second chances in relationships except for certain exceptions (And yeah, I haven't seen the reason to use such exceptions to this very moment), so yes people, I may seem mean and rude but I can't help it.

There's a reason why an Ex is an Ex in your life, no point in keeping yourself busy thinking about the past and what you had.

-Peace!

In between

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between
Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between Between my pride and my promise.
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none.
Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between.
I cannot explain to you
In anything I say or do or plan
Fear is not afraid of you
Guilt's a language you can understand
I cannot explain to you in anything I say or do
I hope the actions speak the words they can.
For my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none.

[From the song In Between- Linkin Park]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UjajQrSgjDY

The wonder years ♥ ♥

To many people in my friends circle they have never seen my childhood pictures but have constantly kept begging me to upload it especially Evangeline, Ramya and Laskhana so lo' and behold people I officially I'm showing these photos for the first time! Hope you like it and if you don't bleh :| I seriously don't mind :P

Oh yeah I've been a tomboy since the day I was born and I still I'm, and yes I look bratty because I was one brat :P

The forgotten friend

How long has it been since we last saw each other?

How long has it been since we last talked face to face? 

Was it a year back or was 3 years ago?

I still remember the times were we would laugh at each other,

Spent time like there was no tomorrow,

Making promises of being friends forever. 

But time passed us by,

You got busy in your life and me in mine. 

Though we kept in touch through the years,

A small message of Hello, How are you were the only words we would say,

From long conversations, now it's all a formality.

The silent promises have seem to be forgotten,

The tears and laughter has died down,

The memories made and shared together are but a book covered in dust in the corner of the room,

The bond that we believe would be forever, broken over a small thing.

Time has passed by so fast, it's almost 10 years,

I still remember you as the best friend you were,

The fights we had, the inside jokes we shared, 

Are now all but a distant memory of the good old days together.

I smile at the friendship we shared,

It was truly one of a kind.

And as I lay down the bouquet of lillies on the gravestone,

Know that you were never forgotten but deeply missed.

-Iba.R.

[TO BE NOTED: Please read it along with the music being played in the background http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=anicaKGED00]

Boredom leads to.....

Yes, people I'm stuck at home from today to 2nd September, no classes and so when I'm bored and jobless this happens :P

When Circle lens attack me :O

A belated birthday gift was given to me and it was these circle lenses from a friend when he went to Seoul last month and I don't know whether it suits me or not. But who cares!! lol XD

I love the colour he choose so yaaiiee my eyes :P

By the way, seems I look like a kid in these pictures to my friends. Don't know what the hell they are thinking because I don't consider it! :P

On a foggy day in Shillong ♥

Where Heaven and Earth meets.

Dew drops on a foggy Sunday I

Dew drops on a foggy Sunday II

 

Dew drops with a cobweb design ^.^

BIGBANG HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY!!

I'm proud of the fact that I listen to BIGBANG and for six years they have gone through alot personally and musically and each time they come back they come back stronger than ever showing that they would not be defeated no matter what life throws them and this is another fact that I'm proud to be called a VIP. 

I wish that they keep on making wonderful music that inspires many people and that they would stay together for infinity!! HAPPY 6th ANNIVERSARY BIGBANG!! 

A Birthday wish

Another year has passed,
Another round to blow out the candles has come.

The Birthday song being sung behind the background,
The laughter and the memories that comes along with it.

Wishes of happy birthday being constantly passed around by loved one's,
Gifts being given and wishes of living a long life being whispered.

And on such a special day, all I have is a birthday wish,
A wish that you would have a wonderful year ahead,
Were all your dreams would come true.

To shine as the star you are,
To live a life were you keep being an inspiration to others,
To have the strength to smile all the way through the obstacles life gives you.

To fight for what you believe in,
To keep having faith in God and yourself,
And to always live life to the fullest every moment.

All I have is this birthday wish,
So happy birthday to you.


-Iba. R.

[Dedicated to Kwon Jiyong, the person who made me start writing again after 3 years, the person who is an everyday inspiration to me  :), HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY KWON LEADER! You deserve this!! :)]

A little bit of me time :D