Hey guys long time no see right? The last update must have been quite a shock to you I guess haha XD
Anyway, today I want to write something that I want to really write about for a while but I never got to well except for today :)
Most people might not know this, but I'm a Christian. So yes, today I want to write how Jesus touched my life in ways that I stand in awe for his love and mercy for me and my mum.
The first time when I felt God's love and mercy was during the revival year of 2006 in Shillong. That day I wanted to go to Church so badly, it was like my soul was pushing me to go there no matter what happens, the need, the want and the urgency was too much I knew I had to be there!
When I reached there, the prayer meeting started and I was praying, I didn't know much about the value of praying that time but I knew I had to pray, I had to talk to God. The moment I laid down my head to pray, the words, the thoughts, the realization of how my life was so small and insignificant came to me, my entire being shook and I knew I was not alone,
I knew I was in the presence of someone who loves me yet who was greater than anyone. I knew I was in the presence of Jesus and when I realized that I cried.
The realization of how my life is, the thoughts of how I being a sinner was not fit to see this love, this mercy, this grace from Jesus, the thoughts of how his never ending compassion has been blessing me in my life without me seeing it, the feelings of how I was so blind I didn't see his blessings in my life, were going on my mind and with that the tears started flowing.
It was from there, my life changed. I realized so many things on that day and even now I still cry at the thought of how God's love is, how deep and everlasting his compassion and his mercy is. Like the song 'I surrender' by Hillsong, Lord Jesus created a storm within my soul, a storm I never wish to die out but rather to keep on raging stronger than ever with every passing moment.
My life, let me tell you honestly, I have gone through so much things that if I was a person who didn't know God I would have fallen a long time ago. Yes, there were times I felt was alone and I had my period of negativity but it was through those times I found that I needed to be closer to God; it was through those times my relationship with Jesus grew.
A few months ago, I was really sick and I was scared. I went to the doctor as well and she was telling me that the medicine she's giving it might work or might now and that's when I knew I needed to be healed by Jesus and that was when my faith was tested and I knew it. It was test on how much I withstand, how much I could stand on my feet and say it will be Jesus who will heal me. It was a test on how much trust I have on God no matter what happens and for two weeks I prayed. I prayed to the point that whenever I bow down and prayed my faith was renewed, my strength was renewed. And after the two weeks passed, Jesus answered my prayers and I was healed. I was miraculously healed. After that tribulation, I realized that I was saved and healed by the blood of Jesus. Jesus showed me another side of his love and mercy that I thought I would never see.
Where I am now in life, is because of Jesus. It is because of his love, his blessings, his mercy, his never ending grace, I am who I am now. He blessed me and still is blessing me each every moment of this precious life he gave. The things I never thought I will be able to enjoy or share with someone I love but with Jesus everything was and is made possible.
May God's love, mercy and blessings be poured into each of you.
-Praise be to Lord Jesus.
Amen :)
