Those closest to me know that I'm not that sort of person who can easily express what I feel inside with actions but rather I prefer writing it down and hope that the person reading understands what am trying to say. Though I've gone through many hardships in my life, one of the hardest was losing my dad when I was 16. It's been hard for me to deal with his death and even now I'am still having problems with it but I'am not that sort of person who shows the world that she's sad or anything. It's been four years and 9 months, and whenever I see young kids walking with their dad's holding hands and crossing the road I was always wishing my dad was with me to protect me from the world.
Losing someone you care and love alot especially a parent makes you learn the most valuable lesson in life. You learn to cherish the moments you shared and also value the little and big things they taught you when they were by your side. Though I love my mom, I kinda love my dad a little more. He made me learn to have tolerance and to never be afraid of anything and even if I'm afraid, never show it to the world. He wasn't that sort of parent who would give you long lectures if you did anything wrong but rather he would sit down with me and talk to me like a friend. From him, I learnt to live my life according to my wishes, to not care what people say because no matter what it is they will always keep on talking and to never be afraid to always follow my dreams no matter what. He may not be the greatest dad in the world, but in my eyes he was. He always loved me no matter what I did and he always accepted me for what I am. I did and said many things which I now realized must have given him much hurt but yet he tolerated it and still loved me. I always wondered if he was here right now would he be proud of the person I am now? Will he forgive me for all the things I said and did? The answers to these questions are 'what ifs'.
But I hope that wherever he is right now, I hope he knows my feelings that am sorry for everything. It's because of him and mom's constant guidance that I am the person I am right now.
Thank you dad and Love you!
Losing someone you care and love alot especially a parent makes you learn the most valuable lesson in life. You learn to cherish the moments you shared and also value the little and big things they taught you when they were by your side. Though I love my mom, I kinda love my dad a little more. He made me learn to have tolerance and to never be afraid of anything and even if I'm afraid, never show it to the world. He wasn't that sort of parent who would give you long lectures if you did anything wrong but rather he would sit down with me and talk to me like a friend. From him, I learnt to live my life according to my wishes, to not care what people say because no matter what it is they will always keep on talking and to never be afraid to always follow my dreams no matter what. He may not be the greatest dad in the world, but in my eyes he was. He always loved me no matter what I did and he always accepted me for what I am. I did and said many things which I now realized must have given him much hurt but yet he tolerated it and still loved me. I always wondered if he was here right now would he be proud of the person I am now? Will he forgive me for all the things I said and did? The answers to these questions are 'what ifs'.
But I hope that wherever he is right now, I hope he knows my feelings that am sorry for everything. It's because of him and mom's constant guidance that I am the person I am right now.
Thank you dad and Love you!
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