And this I write.....

Hey guys, finally back in updating again and got to say first thing first, I've finally cleared first half of my final year can I hear a woot woot hahaha :D

But the sad thing is that it obviously means that I'm almost done with law and it means saying goodbye to the asses who I call friends from the University. But today I don't want to talk about the melancholy feeling that I have because of another chapter in life ending, but today I want to talk about love or in other words this update is more like a love story written to that one special person whose in my life right now (though I doubt he reads my blog) haha XD

Well, yeah I remembered I told you about this in my earlier update that I fell in love and honestly, I've never openly told people about this but I've remained single for these past two to three years that I actually came to the conclusion that  I'll  never actually find someone (Don't blame me kids it was normal to have such thoughts okay haha XD). Anyway so yeah, that was how I passed through life as a single girl and  though there were times guys would come and talk, I rejected every guy. The reason; honestly I wasn't interested, not even a single bit, I think I got fed up with their sugary talks and well their chessy pick up lines that I think they have used for almost every girl they've met.

BUT, that all changed on 24th November 2013, damn I remember the day like it was yesterday haha XD. It all started with the invitation from mum's best friend for a bonfire in the cold November month since she was back from Italy she wanted to meet up and well she just wanted to catch up with mum as well, I on the other hand was bored at home I decided to tag along (which I must add I do not regret it one bit) with mum and that's when the real story starts.

Like I said I tagged along with mum for the Bonfire get together but what I didn't know was the fact that it wasn't only mum and me who were going to be there but there were three other people who I didn't know and got to say when we (mum and me) arrived at my aunt's place I was kinda surprised I guess haha XD Surprised because I thought the get together was only with three of us but then lo and behold three unknown people were there sitting and were talking to my aunt as if they were best friends in the world. On seeing me and mum, my aunt immediately called us over and introduced us to each other and got to say that was one funny introduction I ever had in my life; out of the three people who were introduced, one stuck out. Reason; he didn't even bother to shake hands when  we were introducing each other! Let alone shaking hands he didn't bother to look me in the eyes and tell his name. Honestly, I thought this guy is seriously weird let alone he doesn't shake hands on being introduced to each other, he doesn't even bother to talk and socialize! My thoughts at that time were like screaming out loud to me in my head HOT GUY ALERT but too bad he doesn't want to socialise!!!

After the introductions were done, we all sat around the bon fire and were having a few drinks and were trying to converse with each other and while we were talking I clearly remember that the so called HOT GUY was sitting across me in the corner, not talking much. Me on the other hand, I was busy texting my best friend and telling her I met a hot guy but too bad he might having a girlfriend because at that time I saw him turning away and was comfortably talking and laughing to the person who called him and that's when I realised no point in flirting with him after all he has someone already I shouldn't be a mean bitch haha XD (Yes, people I have my priorities straight)

After his talk on the call, I immediately changed my motive and tried not to converse with him much but rather try to talk to the other two friends of his because honestly though I wanted him but I can't him so I thought the next best thing would be if I try being friends with his friends instead (at least something is better nothing right??) haha XD But, I don't know, even though I wanted to change my motive I couldn't, I was curious about this guy who sat across me and I wanted to know him more. The turning point of how I knew this HOT GUY was single was when I decided to go in search of the restroom and I do not know what reason made him stand up to accompany me, maybe he thought I was too drunk to not know where the restroom was (to this date I blame the alcohol haha XD) and that's when I realised he just wanted to talk to me personally but me being the reclusive me at that time I ran like the wind away from him hahah XD

After the running away incident, I immediately ran back to the place where the bonfire was held and made sure to stay put no matter what happens and started talking like crazy and I mean crazy to everyone there just to forget what happened. But, I must tell you that life can be fucked up though, after a few drinks and after one or two hours passed by, everyone there including me were a little more than tipsy and to this date again I do not know were in the hell did everyone vanished to, leaving me and the HOT GUY sitting together near the bon fire.

Since it was only me and the HOT GUY we eventually started talking (trust me I tried all possible ways to not talk to him but my stupid mouth and heart did not listen to my brain) and the topic of discussion was the tattoos we had in each others arms haha XD Seriously, we must have been so stupid I guess but like I said blame it on the alcohol hehe XD And so, that's how we started talking and getting to know each other but suddenly I had to leave without saying my goodbyes to him (yeah, like Cinderella who ran away because of the time haha XD) and left my aunt's place.

But what utterly shocked me and made me think this guy (HOT GUY) was someone different probably was the fact that after I left, within 10 mins he somehow got my number from my aunt's cell phone and called me up and that I must say kids it was probably the first time after a long time I talked to a guy for more than 1 hour, though our conversation wasn't based on anything romantic but I knew that the walls I build for so long were slowly breaking down. It was then I realised that this person, this unbelievable soul, is someone different. Someone utterly rare and unique, someone who would bring some peace to my chaotic life, someone who would heal my destructive nature.

From the day I met him to this present moment, though we have our ups and downs, our moments of letting go and firmly holding on, our good and bad days, I know that somehow there's a reason why he's in my life and why I am in his. I have my fears, my doubts and my insecurities, hell I have a lot of insecurities and I know he does as well, and each time a fear creeps up on me I think about the things he did, the things he said and the feelings he makes me feel every time I need someone and that's when I realize its worth it. No matter what it's worth it.

And this I write, I may not know what happens in the future but I'm glad I got to feel this feeling. This feeling of euphoria; this feeling that can be both heaven as well as hell. This feeling that maybe, maybe I have a chance to be someone better than who I really am.