Sickness

Pretense was the name of the game but I guess I had no clue,

You won and I lost.

I thought being with you was easy as breathing but as time passed I couldn't breathe anymore,
Suffocated in this relationship, I knew I had to let you go but I kept on holding on.

This love has become an obsession, a bad habit that I should get rid of,

My voice has turned into fear, my eyes shows nothing.

My affection is lost, I've become numb,

People around me tell me I've changed.

They don't understand me anymore but when did they ever did?

The coldness that surrounds me is slowly filling me up.
I can't look at myself anymore.
I got nothing in me now, 

Emptiness surrounds me but it doesn't make me weak.

Am not sick, am not hurt,

All I need is time.

Feelings change as the seasons,

Everyone changes.
I learnt from you the hardest thing in life,
There's no denying it now, I finally understand

Love is atrocious.
Love gives you pain as you keep learning about it.
The more you learn the worst you become.
Love is bad.
Love is nothing but hurt.

Love is just a sickness.
I don't need to beg you to stay, am letting you go.

I need to breathe again.

I need to live.

I don't need my mind to be filled with useless thoughts.

I need a drink right now,
I need to drown these thoughts and make me not remind myself for what I've become for you.
I've become cold to everyone who knows me,
Drunk in anxiety and doubts.
Am tainted by the love we had.
Memories of us haunt me and I can't seem to make myself forget,
But I need to tell myself that the love we shared was nothing but pretense
I learnt from you the hardest thing in life,
There's no denying it now, I finally understand
Love is atrocious.

Love gives you pain as you keep learning about it.
The more you learn the worst you become.
Love is bad.
Love is nothing but hurt.

Love is just a  sickness.

[This is just a poem nothing against love as such. I was listening to a song and got inspired. Nothing more or nothing less]